mizugameza

I need to, like, actually update this more often. D=

( Cutting this, just to save anyone who doesn't want to read it some time. )

In other news, I got my hands on the final volumes of Kenshin, so I get to read what happens. Yay~.

After looking at so many neat icons, I thought...how come I never try to make any?
So now I have. And if other people want to use them, they can go ahead...i'd really, really like credit, but I understand if you forget who you got these icons from. That can happen sometimes. I'd also like it if people commented on what/if they're taking any, and if they like anything or have some suggestions for things to do/try out/improve on?

I just started playing with photoshop, you see...

( The unimpressive first iconses! )

EDIT: Oh, crap, I numbered them backwards! ...oh, well. The 001s are actually some of the last ones I did, though you can kind of tell that already from the quality. Some of these I wouldn't've even put up, but I want to be able to look back and see if i've improved. =\
Also, for Guilty Gear's 003 of these I used a brush from Here and Host Club's 001 and 002 Here

And thus, she updated just to update. D=

Life is squeaky.

Description via songs! D:


Someone You're Going to Tag To Do This: uhhh...Xarinrex and quatrekins?  D:  I don't think yakk'd do it, otherwise i'd tag him too.  No one has to do it.  xD

Today's the last day of the second week of college for me.  Alright, so it's not what you'd normally picture for a college -it's a community college in my area.  I applied to it and a well-known, well-thought-of college but even though I got accepted into the latter, I appreciated the less money required in the former option.

As bad as I am when it comes to plans, I have a pretty good idea that it's better to pay less for the same classes than to pay more just for the college name.  D:  The college name only matters if it's...well, one of those amazingly-ultra-snazzy places.

My, ah, now ex-boyfriend (is it really ex?  The way things are, it's so confusing), asked that because of the mess his life is in right now, he'd like to just be friends at the moment.  I agreed, trying to be as reasonable as possible, since - regardless what he says, he loves me and I love him.  That might change, hell it's more likely now that it's this "just friends" thing until he gets things back in gear for himself, but why worry more when that is actually out of my power?  Fretting about it and harrassing him isn't going to help my wants any.

Lack of sleep and difficulty sleeping, though, is a terrible thing.  D:

Drawing the non-anime stuff again.  ...The stuff that makes people usually go "WTF?!" or worry about talking to me.  ._.  Sadly it's the stuff I feel most closely with, the pieces of me that i'm least willing to share through any means but art.

Eh-heh. Whoopsie.

I've become a little addicted to Lost, but i've only seen the first few episodes from Season 1. Hopefully I manage to finish watching those episodes before Season 2 comes out on dvd. =3

Life is good for me lately, minus the fact that i'm really exhausted and physically ill, sometimes I have big boughts of insecurity and other things.

Signed up for college classes i'll be taking in the fall. Hooray! I'm glad that's out of the way.

And...that's about it.

So, I took this personality test and I got Introverted iNtuitive Feeling Perceiving as the four main points of my personality...

Curious, I desired to find out...more!
( What's My Personality? The highlights of the serious answers. )

( What's My Personality? The humorous version. )

( What's YOUR personality? Christine wants to know! )

I think it sounds like me, really. I think, sadly, it sounds a lot like me.

Why?

Hands are very, very fun to draw.

...and the thing i'm happiest about in having become eighteen on February 2nd is that now I can register to vote.

Is that odd?

<3.

I am boring and sane.

Yargh, fear my butter.

Blargh.

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! In August quatrekins and I donated clothes to the needy (11 points). In January I bought porn for yakk (-10 points). In March I pushed frank_castle_ in the mud (-17 points). Last month I helped vicious_circles hide a body (-173 points). Last Tuesday I broke xarinrex's X-Box (-12 points). Overall, I've been naughty (-201 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking! Sincerely, mizugameza

Write your letter to Santa! Enter your LJ username:

Yay! I deserve a--...er, wait, what? O_o

For one of my friends...

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Christine
2. Chrissy
3. Chris

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
(Why do you want to know? To stalk my past?)
1. Ranma_inverse
2. Relena_the_kawaii
3. Mei_of_maze (None of these are used anymore)

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I really care about those who are important to me.
2. My usual willingness to stand up and possibly stand out badly against others.
3. My imagination.

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My imagination.
2. My lack of social skills.
3. My voice.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. German
2. Swiss
3. Swedish

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Brian
2. A group that is angry at me (You never know what people can pull...)
3. Myself

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Music
2. Writing utensil
3. Paper

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Green button-down, long-sleeved shirt
2. Jeans.
3. Socks.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR ARTISTS:
1. A Perfect Circle
2. Within Temptation
3. Staind

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. A Perfect Circle - The Nurse Who Loved Me
2. Staind - Fill Me Up
3. Lacuna Coil - The Prophet Said

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
1. Colorado
2. Dancing (....don't ask)
3. ....I dunno?

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
(Someone should've told me this was an advertisement survey)
1. Honesty.
2. Fidelity.
3. Honesty. >.>

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Smiles. Awkward or smirks count. =3
2. Those scary eyes. =D I don't know why I like them. I suppose you can tell that they're thinking, as opposed to the blank ones I have...
3. Hands.

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN’T DO:
1. Kill someone for no reason.
2. Kill animals just to kill them.
3. Hate someone without a long list of reasons and causes.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Breathing.
2. Writing.
3. Closing my eyes and listening to music.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Talk to Reno.
2. Relax in bed.
3. Draw.

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING:
1. Psychologist/Therapist/Etc.
2. Psychology or art teacher.
3. Living. It's a career. O.o

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Colorado
2. London
3. Washington, to strangle that dam---er. Eh-heh. No reason.

THREE KIDS’ NAMES:
1. Nicodemus
2. Katarina
3. Rufus

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Breathe.
2. Go to Colorado.
3. Live for several years with a person I love.

1. FIRST NAME? Christine

2. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Nope. I'm glad of that.

3. DO YOU WISH ON STARS? Occasionally.

4. WHICH FINGER IS YOUR FAVORITE? My thumb or my index finger?

5. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY? Eh-heh. Last night.

6. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? I like that it has my personality in it. But it's messy as hell, even so.

7. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? I don't have a favorite lunch meat.

8. ANY BAD HABITS? Bite my nails. Fidget. Motor-leg (the impatient leg movement thing). Loud and obnoxious voice. Interrupting people. Being clumsy. Being dense.
9. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF? Pokemon cd.

10. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Yes.

11.HAVE YOU EVER TOLD SOMEONE A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL? Twice. I greatly regret both.

12. DO LOOKS MATTER? I'd rather someone have the ability to use their brain and have a good personality than look good. But my definition of looking good means not looking artificial. So a lot of the "pretty" people don't register that way to me...I like how Abraham Lincoln looked, for example. It had character! I like his nose.

13. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER? Expressing it in art and/or writing. Moping. Not releasing it and leaving it inside. Argue. Vent verbally.

14. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME? Where the heart is.

15. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY? Yes and no. I like to believe that people can be trusted, but at the same time i'm hesitant to do so, if that makes sense at all...

16. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD? Stuffed bunnies. And cats. Mostly bunnies, though.

17. WHAT CLASS IN SCHOOL DO YOU THINK IS TOTALLY USELESS? I can't really think of one that I thought had NO poi---OH! OH! OH! In Australia, religious class! Because everyone had to listen to the Christian way.

18. DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL? Several. Online and off. Eh-heh.

19. DO YOU USE SARCASM? On occasion. Sometimes way too much.

20. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT? Nope.

21. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL? Intellectual, emotional, generally more of a cuddly/romantic person than I seem to be.

22.WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES? Chrissy, Chris, Christ, Cryssea, Mei, Chrismei, Grump, Mizu, Mizugameza.

23. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? Extreme fear of heights. You tell me.

24. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? Yep.

25. DO YOU THINK THAT YOU HAVE STRONG POINTS? Uh. ...I try to be a good person and I try to understand things from beyond my point of view? (Key words, try...) I guess...

26. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR? Butter pecan, or vanilla fudge swirl, or french silk, or...

27. WHAT IS YOUR SHOE SIZE? 9-10.

28. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS? Green, green, green, green, green, green...purple, black, blue.

29. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE? ...They're not popping out to say hello yet.

30. WHO DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW? ...Vincent.

31. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? Well, one already has, and who knows with the other.

32. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Maroon 5 - Harder To Breathe

33. LAST THING YOU ATE? Something questionably edible.

34. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? ...I can't remember?

35. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX? ...I have no idea, why not watch when I turn around to look at a guy and guess from there?

36. DO YOU LOVE THE PERSON WHO POSTED THIS? She's a good friend. n.n

37. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? In a ridiculous mood.

38. FAVORITE NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK? Cranberry-pineapple juice. Or milk. ....Choices...

39. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK? I've only had one. Can't really say anything from that, can I?

40. FAVORITE SPORT? ...Ice skating? >_>

41. HAIR COLOR? ...mixed up...stuff. Brownish. Blondish. Slight coppery moments. I dunno.

42. EYE COLOR? Blue.

43. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Nope.

44. SIBLINGS? Two older brothers.

45. FAVORITE MONTH? October or December...

46. FAVORITE FOOD? Bread.

47. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Serenity.

48. FAVORITE DAY(S) OF THE YEAR? People's birthdays. Including mine.

49. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? Yes.

50. SUMMER OR WINTER? Winter.

51. HUGS OR KISSES? Both, damnit.

52. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? Who on EARTH would want a one night stand with me? ...Even so, relationships, please. n.n

53. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? ...No one?

54. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? I have no idea?

55. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? Not reading anything at the moment.

56. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? nothing in particular.

57. FAVORITE BOARD GAME? Clue. Trivia games even when I suck horribly at them.

58. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? ...I didn't watch TV last night.

59. FAVORITE SMELLS? Obsession by Calvin Klein, mints, rain, after the rain, forests, stormy weather, smoke, cigarette smoke...(I know, I know, bad Christine...)

60. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP? "Huh?"/"Crap."

Your World View

You are a fairly broadminded romantic and reasonably content. You value kindness and try to live by your ideals. You have strong need for security, which may be either emotional or material. You respect truth and are flexible. You like people, and they can readily make friends with you. You are not very adventurous, but this does not bother you.

Stole it from Quatrekins.

List 20 facts about you, truthful, fun and wierd.

1) I have a mild obsession with the game Shadow Hearts and its music. Sequel included, but not as important.
2) I buy game soundtracks to games i've never played.
3) I once knew a man with one eye.
4) My left side is slightly bigger on the whole than the right. Seems to be the opposite with right-handed people.
5) The idea of a close family seems foreign to me because of the way my own is.
6) I love sitting on laps, but am too shy to just do it.
7) I have a mole on my left ear.
8) I'm attracted to men and women. I seem to attract older men (even if it's just by a year), and as for women I have no idea because even though I am one I have no idea when they're flirting to be friendly or flirting to say, hey, I dig you.
9) I have pale scar on my forehead from when I smashed my head open as a child.
10) I harmed my forehead quite often as a child, because I was an idiot and could not learn to watch where my head went early enough in life.
11) I'm a virgin. GASP. ...For now.
12) It's quite silly of me, but I have a deep longing to be a "good person", or at least...what makes someone a good person in my view.
13) I'm extremely experimental and want to try a hell of a lot of things in life. Some very simple, others potentially odd.
14) I don't do any sort of official tai chi or yoga or whatever you'd like to say is similar to what I do sometimes, but I do something similar every week at least.
15) I tend to get physically sick very quickly if something's bothering me or i'm extremely worried about something and I'm not talking about it.
16) I have gone after a man that wasn't single.
17) I am never going to let my child get on the internet until they're in high school at LEAST. There are people i've known on the internet that, though they've taught me some life lessons, have made me very...not trusting of others because of THEIR natures.
18) I worry about having children in the future, because I think i'll be a damn horrible mother.
19) I believe that I usually sound angry or nervous and I think I make it worse by worrying about it.
20) I absolutely love it when people confide in me or talk to me about their problems, even if I can't do anything but just listen. That someone puts their trust in me enough to do that is something I treasure.

If i'd tag anyone...it'd be Q-Chan and Yakk *Mean*, because, uhm...they're the only ones on my list, pretty much. XD Though whether or not they actually do it is completely their choice.

Just beat Shadow Hearts: Covenant. Being sick means I lay on the couch, hack, and play video games.

Mmmm. SH:C. I saw the good ending...and, no spoilers, but...

OH MY GOD at first I thought the ending SUCKED. I was thinking to myself as the credits rolled, "WTF IS THIS?! WHERE IS MY GOOD ENDING?!" and then...they caught me. The credits ended, they played the second half of the ending and...

<3.

Love game. Forgive it for following the bad ending of the first game. Shadow Hearts is my favorite game, but the sequel isn't too bad...

Love the save file (check it on the ps2 if you have it) image after it changes once you beat it. At first, it has Karen (Karin? Already forgot at the moment) hitting Yuri...now it has him and Alice sitting together and moving from kissing each other to blushing and looking away (Yuri grinning and Alice covering her mouth with a hand). Awwww. So cute.

Now to replay it for quote time...!

I shouldn't be bothered that i'm alone in a house with my oldest brother.

It shouldn't bother me at all.

...But he's never been the sort that could be trusted - I learned that when I was little.

So, here I am, wondering why no one else in my family thought twice about this, scared.

Scared that something's going to piss him off, and i'm alone in the house with him.

...I don't trust him, I still don't trust him, even though everyone else in my family does.



I suppose i'm just being childish. I'm just not comfortable being around him, period...

Okay, today, surprisingly - no insults from anyone aside from...well, the typical people.

Even so, I feel more miserable than I did yesterday because of the realities that are sinking in.

Either way, though...

There was just ONE thing I wanted out of today. ONE thing. I wanted to talk to Mr. Special, Mr. Important To Me, Mr. I Love You.

The computer was in use, the phone was in use, everything was fucking in use and this was just the ONE thing I wanted out of today. I wanted to talk to him. That's all. That's all I needed to make it an okay day, even if we argued for some damned reason or another, probably because of something i'd have done because of my bad mood. That's all I needed for today not to be wasted.

I got a few words in through an instant message before my internet connection began to continually fail every few seconds.

Apparently, fate had decided I couldn't even have a conversation with him today. And, yes, the phone is still in use.

It figures. It just. really. figures.

And this is just the few set of days where i've been wanting to be cuddled (metaphorically speaking. Well, literally, too...), okay? Even in the barest sense of Christine-is-nifty-and-i-enjoy-talking-to-her type crap. Because, as pathetic and in search of compliments as that may sound, THAT's the kind of stuff that i've been needing to hear lately. That's the kind of stuff that's making me want to hug the speaker and cry because they said something i've been needing to hear.

I'll bounce back from this state shortly. ...But this is just how I am right now.

I'll probably get nervous about this post and delete it too...